So my life has been a little crazy lately.
In most ways it's been the usual craziness but there's been added elements that have had me looking at the sky going, "God, what are You doing?" And I can just picture Him in heaven shaking His head and chuckling at me.
"Oh Christine, if you only knew it would knock your socks off. I am intricately working all of these stories together into my perfect big story. I know from your perspective it looks like a mess but from up here, it's beautiful!"
And I wonder, if I tried to figure it out or tried to manipulate it all to the outcome I think would be best, would it be? Or what if I thought I knew what was coming and then missed what actually came?
Because I do that. I'm just like Jesus' disciples. Walking into Jerusalem on Palm Sunday thinking that Jesus is going to kick Roman butt and I'm going to rule beside Him only to find myself running and hiding on Friday as my King is crucified and I am totally confused.
They had their own ideas about God's plans and at times I do too. And it can blind me to what He is actually doing. The disciples witnessed the pinnacle of human history, the centerpiece of the Story and most of them missed it out of fear and confusion.
I have to ask myself, am I listening? Am I living open handed, ready to do as He wills or am I clinging tightly to my plan, trying to make it work?
He's right. I don't always see it. From down here it looks like a huge mess at times. And it leaves me shaking my head and chuckling. "Oh Lord, what are You up to now?" I really have no other choice but to trust Him and keep walking and wait for the surprise. He is the great Story Writer after all.
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